I know, it seems sort of silly to give a present to your ex but in the spirit of Christmas, i’m going to do it anyway. Since I don’t have the monetary funds to give an actual gift, i’m sending this present in the form of a letter. I hope that it’s recognized for the sincere and true gift that it is.
I’m sure you think this letter will be full of hatred but that’s where you would be wrong. This letter is to thank you. I want to thank you for all the times you disregarded my feelings, discounted my thoughts, made me less than a priority in your life, told me how much of a disappointment I was and disrespected me in so many ways.
I spent an awful lot of time trying to get you to notice me but I know the competition was fierce for your attention. Money, your work, the countless obsessions, the fun times you seemed to feel cheated out of with me as your mate, the gambling, the porn and the long list of things that could go on and on but there is no need because we both know what they are.
But this letter is not to berate you of who you are and of what you held as important because it taught me a very valuable set of lessons. It taught me to stop giving others the right to tell me who I should be. It taught me to stop measuring myself with repeated “failures” in your eyes. It taught me the true meaning of respect because I had to learn it without needing to refer to a dictionary. It taught me that i’m flawed but beautiful nonetheless. And it taught me that I am capable of finding my voice and speaking my truths.
There was a time in which I wanted so badly to share my life with you and grow old together but life changes and we all have to adapt to those changes or else we will become bitter and stagnant. Funny thing, I did grow old but the idea to share that with you now seems so foreign. I’m sure it does to you as well.
Life. It goes on and in so many ways, it can leave one behind if there isn’t an ability to adapt. So I’m learning how to adapt and it is my sincere wish (here’s the present) that you can adapt as well. Let go of the bitterness. Let go of the blame. Let go of always having to be right. Let go of the past and find a way to be happy. I truly do wish you to find happiness because every human being deserves to feel validated, accepted, respected and loved. So Merry Christmas and I sincerely hope the new year will bring you peace.